Exactly 36 hours till my birthday. *wink* Though I decided it's better not to wish for any stuff, my parents, I guess they're all broke. The furniture hunting, few days ago, they said it was for my birthday, how funny. Duh. I overheard that day Mom said she's getting me 100 ringgit vouchers for MPH. That does satisfy me!

Gone to tuition. Headed off to Genting by evening! Will be back by tomorrow afternoon. So, my apologize, but I think Chapter Four is gonna have to wait, for quite some time. Adios senorita, have a nice day everybody! :) Ciaoz.

Some people go through life searching and never find their soul mates. They never do. You and I did, we just happened to have them for a shorter period of time than we hoped for. It's sad, but it's life! - P.S. I Love You, Cecelia Ahern.

Chapter Three: Horror and despair.

“Kate, I rather not listen to your explanation. Why? Because I absolutely understand the circumstances you’re facing. And I know, nobody can stand looking at my sickening face. So, I’ll just vanish from your sight. I’m not going to let my insaneness ruining your perfect life.” Kate stared at me in horror as I spilled everything out in front of her. I know I had been the troublesome one. And I don’t want that to ruin everybody’s life. “And Kate? Thanks for being my best friend all along.” Without waiting for Kate’s reply, I walked away.

I ran up to my hiding spot. I needed to get out from the crowd. I needed to be alone. I stared up the sky, it looked all so gloomy today. Then, it started drizzling. I stood still, as it continued raining heavily. I felt weaker and weaker. The rain drops hitting on my face. I felt pain. Pins and needles ran up the back of my neck and a lump in my throat threatened to choke me. Slowly, I collapsed to the ground. Drown me. Make the pain go away, please. I closed my eyes, waiting for my last breath. My time is up. Death had never felt so welcoming to me, as I tried to reach out for it. Seconds later, darkness hit upon me.

…

Vividly, I could hear heavy footsteps approaching me. “Summer, Summer.” I could hear my mom’s worried voice. I could picture her face, eyebrows furrowed, forehead wrinkled with worry. “Can you hear me, Summer?” Sean’s warm hand was holding mine. I struggled to open my eyes, but they refused to obey, they remained tight closed. “Summer, wake up. I’m so sorry, Summer. Let me see you smile again, please.” It was Kate. I wanted to speak and tell Kate everything is fine. But my lips remained unsealed.

Tick tock tick tock.

The strong smell of medicine and the blinding white walls, I was in the hospital. But why had I ended up here? I tried to rewind back, but my head hurts as I started thinking. I looked around. The room was empty. There were flowers and get-well-soon cards on the table. How long had I been unconscious? I tried to get up but with all the needles on my hands, it was difficult.

“Summer, hey wait, what are you doing? Trying to make an escape from the hospital?” Sean ran to my side and stopped me. “Sean, why am I here?” “You really don’t remember a thing?” “I remembered screaming at Kate and I got up to my hiding spot. It was raining. I lay on the ground. I thought I was going to die. Then, I ended up here.” “You truly were going to die, Summer. We couldn’t find you anywhere. Until somebody told us you might be up at that hiding spot of yours. When we found you, you were already unconscious. And you were having a really high fever. The doctor said you could have gone into a coma if we were just a few seconds late… ” “Wait. Wait, Sean! Nobody knows my hiding spot. ” It couldn’t be him. I looked at Sean’s face. He was hesitating whether or not to tell the truth. “SEAN!” “Carter knew.” I took a deep breathe as I heard his name.

…

After so many days, I still couldn’t get over the fact that Carter had been there. It’s like so impossible. I wanted to talk to him, in second thought, or maybe not. Well, a thank you wouldn’t harm right? He had been my lifesaver whichever how. How bad would it possibly turned out to be?

The door made a squeaking sound as I opened it and found out that the house was empty. Usually by this time, Mom would be in the kitchen preparing for our dinner. But the house was in complete silence. Never mind that, Dad should be home any minute.

I went into my bathroom. Looking at the reflection of myself in the mirror, I’ve really been in a mess. My hairs were all tangled upon together. I could see dark circles beneath my eyes. I’ve never got a good sleep for quite a long time. I decided to have a warm bath to soothe out my depressed feelings. As the water splashed on my face, tears rolled down my cheeks. I shouldn’t have made that move. This is all just a big, silly mistake.

The warm bath didn’t manage to make things better. I sat on my bed and stared blankly around my room. My eyes fell on a photo of us. It was during the school dance last year. I remembered how we swirled around the dance floor, how hard I laughed as I was a really bad dancer, and I kept stepping on his toes. His hand was on my waist and I was resting my head on his shoulder, and my eyes were locked on his. People changes as the time go. Those hurtful words he said this afternoon, eventually torn my heart into million of pieces. I was just trying to be nice …

There he was, leaning against his locker. I gathered all my courage and took a step ahead. He looked at me, in disgust. “Carter, can I talk to you?” “Is there still anything left for us to talk?” His words were like swords, too sharp for my heart to handle. I held on to my tears. “Thank you for saving me the other day.” “Yeah.” He replied in a cold tone, his eyes never looking at me. And he left.

I thought that there would be a day that I would be back in his arms again. When he turned his back on me, my dreams were left scattered. I know he hated me a lot and he’s never going to forgive me. How I wished I could take back all the horrible words I’ve said to him. Now, all that was left was a bundle of memories.

I cried till I fell asleep. I woke up a few times in the middle of the night. I don’t know what time it was but it was still dark so I assumed it wasn’t morning yet. I could have got up and went in the kitchen for a drink, or it might have been just a dream. I have no idea. My head felt so heavy and dizzy most of the time.

The phone rang for so many times. I wonder why nobody is picking it. I was annoyed and ran downstairs. Odd, I find the living room still the same as I left it the night before. The lights were still on. I guess Mom and Dad did not came back home at all. I picked up the phone and the line went dead. I counted how many seconds would it takes for the person to call back, when I counted ten for the third time and was about to give up, the phone finally rang.

“Hello?” Who the heck is this? “Excuse me. Who is on the line please?” This is so ridiculous. “Who is this?!” I have no patience for this kind of joke. “Tut… tut…” The person hanged up the phone. I cursed him under my breath.

I looked at the clock. 8.30 a.m. Maybe I should check out what my parents are up to. I dialed my Mom’s phone. “Mom, where are you?” “OH, Summer!” She said in astonishment, as if an old friend of hers called to catch up her life or something. “I’m so sorry, Summer. Your dad and I met up with our ex-school mates. We had an awesome lunch together. Summer, do you remember Uncle Jim…” Mom continued babbling. I wasn’t really listening to what she said. From time to time, I made some noises in respond that I was still there. When she finally said goodbye, I only realized that my parents had actually gone travelling without notifying their daughter. Or plan to.

I was supposed to be in school at this time. But I couldn’t possibly face my friends in my sickening face. I wouldn’t want to face Carter either and vise versa. For most of the time, I just sat, daydreaming or wandering around the house. There’s nothing much to do. I ate when my stomach grumbled for food. I slept when my eyelids started to fall. The hours just seemed to pass by without me knowing what time it was already.

I stared outside the window. The sky was getting dark. I need to get out of this place. I need to feel joy and happiness. I do, desperately. I know just exactly who can bring me to them.

“Victoria, are you free tonight?”

...

I started coughing when Victoria brought me in to Judith’s Pub. It was stuffy inside, with no ventilation or air conditioning at all, and I find it really difficult to breathe in the smoky air. Practically everyone around me seemed to be smoking and my eyes felt so stingy. I was hesitating is this where I should be? Victoria pulled me in before I could run. “Believe me, Summer, you will have the best night ever here. Just push away all your pain and enjoy.” Her voice terrified me. She left me at the bar and dashed off. I felt really uneasy. I took a sip at my drink and looked around. I don’t know what I am looking for, because none of the familiar faces I know would appear out of this place.

A tall and dark handsome guy approached me. “Vodka and Coke, two please.” He grinned at me. “For the beautiful lady.” I smiled shyly. Richard is such a friendly person. He’s so easy to talk to. Even though we only knew each other for a few hours, I felt like I can tell him about everything. So we went on and on talking about our life, friends and families. I’d seldom confess the truths to people, especially to strangers. But Richard is just so different.

I looked at my watch. It was half past midnight already. “Hey, Richard thanks for the night. It had been nice talking to you. But time flies when we have fun. I gotta run, handsome.” I tried to get up from the seat. I wobbled. My head felt so dizzy. I think I had too much. But come on. Vodka and Coke, how drunk can I be? Richard laughed. “Why don’t I give you a ride? Drink and drive is illegal, ya know?” “How thoughtful of you, Richard.” I teased him. He helped me to get up and half carried me out of the pub.

I wouldn’t stop laughing insanely on his tales. Richard was telling me the incident his ex dumped him because a lady tripped over him. He said his ex-girlfriend wouldn’t believe that was an accident. In fact, she thinks that Richard wanted to have a peek at the lady’s underwear.

I threw up a few times. Thank goodness Richard was there to help me, or else I might have fallen into the drain.

I realized the pathway was getting darker. “Richard, I thought your car was just outside the pub?” “Yeah, I know. I was thinking about taking a longer way to get there.” “Oh.” I smiled. Suddenly, Richard pushed me towards the wall. He was so near me, I could even smell his breath. Ew. Vodka and Coke. “Get off me Richard, you’re heavy.” I thought he was just fooling around. He kept his hand firmly on the wall. “Sorry to disappoint you Summer, but I am the bad guy.” His eyes looked so scary. Seconds later, his lips crushed onto mine, roughly.

I struggled to get away but his hands were holding my waist tightly, I couldn’t move an inch. I tried to scream but his lips were glued to mine, I could hardly breathe. His lips ran over to my shoulder, I kicked his legs and started running. I keep looking in front. It’s almost the corner. There would be people. I can make it, I know I can.

I lost my balance and I fell. My knees were bleeding. I can hear Richard’s footstep getting nearer. I felt so tired and I just don’t have the energy to stand up. How can the friendly and gentle Richard turn into this kind of beast? “There you are sugar.” I started screaming. Why isn’t anybody passing through this lane? Why couldn’t anyone hear me? As Richard reached his hands out, I knew there’s no more hope.

I heard a car braked just in front of the lane. A familiar shadow ran towards me. He punched hardly on Richard’s face. Richard’s nose started to bleed. He immediately ran away. The familiar shadow did not chase upon him. He held me close. “Summer, it’s over. He’s gone. He’s gone.” My whole body was shaking. My heart was beating wildly. “Sean, oh Sean.”

Sean never left his hand away from my shoulder all the way back home. He stayed up the whole night with me. He held my hand tightly. He wouldn’t stop whispering softly into my ears, “You’re safe Summer.” He knew I was in the state of shock. Coldness ran through my neck as the horrible incident flashed over my mind once again. I cried and I never stop.

How worse can my life go? Carter, why did you let me go? My life is in horror and despair.

In the mean while, writing Summer's Long Lose Love, Yiruma's piano gave me all sorts of ideas. I could feel the sadness, the happiness and all. Enough of writing, I had been reading a lot too. A Walk to Remember, no doubt, got me into crying and sobbing. Nicholas Sparks, no doubt too, is a really great author. I bought his Notebook and Message in a Bottle. Can't wait to chew them up too! Currently reading, P.S. I Love You, trying to find the movie too. Sounds touching enough. Might give me inspirations, who knows, haha.

Met Bala @OUG Parkson! I got so damn delighted. Cause ya know, had been a few weeks since I saw any of them. I kept on waving hands to him and smiling. I was really, really overjoyed. My sister almost got on my nerve later, but still at the same time I couldn't stop laughing.

"Even if I tell you, you also wouldn't know."

"Still the same la, it's A to Z what." HAHAHA

We were silent for a while.

"I thought you said he's a Chinese just now." HAHAHA

Bye. Gotta let my imaginations go wild now.

I grabbed for my phone and dialed Kate’s number. “Kate, you have to help me out. Can I stay at your house for a few days?” “What? Who’s there?” “Kate, it’s Summer, I need your help!” Loud music were banging through the phone. “Summer, oh. Sorry, I don’t have time to listen to your crying about Carter. So, buzz off could you?” Kate hanged up on me. Kate … I couldn’t believe this. What the heck, even my best friend gave up on me? “Please leave your message after the beep.” Corinne’s not picking up my phone, where is she? … God, I felt so hopeless. My dad’s probably going to knock down my door soon.

Sean.

“I’ll be there in a minute.” “Thanks, Sean.” I felt so grateful when I heard Sean’s voice on the phone. I knew he’ll always be there for me. Weird, dad wasn’t banging on the door anymore, mom wasn’t screaming for my name anymore.

Mom, Dad, I’m sorry. I need time to think through all this. Don’t worry about me. I’m not going to do anything reckless or irresponsible. I’ll call you guys when I’m feeling better.

Love, Summer.

I heard Sean’s car behind the yard. I opened up the window and climbed down my two storey house. Mom and dad were arguing in the kitchen. “How long had it been since you sat down and talk to your daughter?” “You were with her every day, and you don’t know what caused all this shit!” I covered up my ears. I’ve got enough with them. I ran towards Sean’s car and my vision got all blurred when I finally got into the seat. Seconds later, my cheeks felt wet and I only realize then, I was crying. Sean said nothing throughout the whole journey. Sometimes he would place his hand on my shoulder. Sometimes he would put his hand on mine. But, all the while, he remained silent. He knew I needed time to think it through. He knew silence was all I needed now.

“We’re home, Summer.” “Okay.” My voice sounded so hoarse. He handed me a tissue and gave me a one-arm hug. “Gee, Summer how many pounds have you lost?” “I don’t know the exact number, but I guess a few.” “Eating is the favorite past time in the Conner's family. And part of our house rules too.” “Sean, I really don’t have the appetite to eat.” “Guess I’ll have to make you then even if I need to feed you.” I giggled. “Summer, do you know you look a lot better when you’re smiling?” I sighed. “I miss the old time you.” “Me too, Sean. If I were to know what was about to happen, I wouldn’t even take a step to fall in love.” “You can never stop love from coming huh.” “Yeah, and I’m sorry about all the sobbing and stuffs.” “No problem at all, Summer.” He stroked my hair gently. I knew I was supposed to feel odd about this but, it felt so nice. “Umm,” I tried to push his hands away from my face. “Sean, have you told your parents yet?” “Yes, they won’t mind a bit.” “Okay. Can we go in?” “Sure sure.”

Sean’s father, Taylor Conner, made a really delicious dinner for all of us. He used to be a famous cook in our small town. I couldn’t stand myself from all the tasty foods anymore. “Wow kid, you do eat a lot.” I laughed; Whereas Sean’s mother, Jean Coleman, is a sweet lady. She welcomed me with a warm hug and said, “Summer, we understand everything, don’t worry.” A few drop of tears wetted her shoulder, I hope she didn’t noticed that.

...

I excused myself from the dining room as an urge of sadness hit upon me. It would be really embarrassing enough to break down in front of the Conner’s family. Nobody can bear with me as I start crying. I couldn't stand looking at them. They reminded me of how my family used to be. Happy.

Slowly I pushed open the door and walked into Sean’s backyard. It feels a little bit chilly outside. I cuddled myself tighter into my sweater. I sighed and a cold breath came out of my mouth. I stared up into the sky. Glittering stars with the bright moon, it dimed up the whole dark sky. I’ve haven’t notice them for quite a while. That, was a common interest we used to share.

…

“Summer, you love shooting stars right?” “Who doesn’t?” We had always stayed up late together, waiting for the beautiful shooting star to light up the dark sky. I didn’t care if I were that lucky to witness such miracle to happen, because Carter had been the best thing that ever happened to my life, he’s a miracle. And that’s enough for me to live for the rest of my life. “What would you wish for if you see one?” “I’m pretty greedy, so there had always been a few wishes. I’m still considering on picking which one of them.” To be with Carter forever and ever, had been the first on my wishing list. “I can give you more than one wish.” “Don’t be silly, Carter.” “Believe me, you’ll witness the miracle tonight. And I promise, you can wish for more than one.” “It couldn’t possibly be the meteor shower right?” “You are good at guessing honey.”

We stayed up all night for the miracle to happen. “I’ll wake you up when it starts to rain.” “I thought we were waiting for the shooting stars?” “Yes. Remember it’s called the meteor shower.” I laughed and closed my eyes as he held me tighter. “Summer, Summer baby. It’s raining.” I opened my eyes. And was so amazed by the majestic scene. The meteors were coming from all directions and angles – it was dizzying and overwhelming and beautiful. There were so many of them. I couldn’t even count, maybe 300, or maybe even 3000. Both of us stared up at the sky and made our wishes. He kissed me on my cheek and whispered I love you into my ears.

…

Suddenly I felt so warm. Somebody covered me with another jacket. I turned and look. “It’s pretty chilly out here.” Sean sat beside me. “So why did you came out here for a sudden?” I remained silence, figuring whether I should lie or not. When I was about to open my mouth, Sean placed his finger on my lips. “Hush. Don’t try and lie to me, Summer.” I was shocked. How did he know I was about to lie? “I can’t keep anything from you huh, Sean?” “No way.” We both stared up into the sky, deep in our own thoughts.

“Does it still hurt a lot?” “Mm-hmm. Worse than you can ever imagine.” “Carter does mean a lot to you huh?” “He is my life.” “You’ll find a better one.” “That’s what everyone keeps telling me.” “You will.” “But I don’t want to. Don’t start this all over with me, Sean.” “But why?” “It’s unexplainable.” “Words are made out of alphabets, how difficult can it be?” “Have you ever felt so much pain as if your life had been snatched away, and left nothing but a lifeless soul? Have you ever felt so much regret that you couldn’t even stand it anymore? Have you ever felt so broken hearted to utter all those words when you knew that it would hurt the one you love the most, so deep? Have you ever felt like dying knowing the one you love the most think of you as nothing but another stranger?!” I gasped for air. Shocked by my sudden reaction, I broke down. “I do, Summer.” Sean held me close and let me cried all my sadness out. He was the only one I could count on in this time being. He wrapped his arms around me. “You do have lot of buckets of tears eh.” I wanted to smile, but I failed.

“Sean,” I have nightmares. Damn, what should I say? “Yes?” “Sean, I …” I struggled on the words I wanted to say. “What’s wrong?” “Sean, can you, stay with me? I have nightmares. I know this might sound ridiculous, but I do scream a lot in my dreams.” “I’ll be here.” “Thanks. Thanks for everything, Sean.” “My pleasure.” “You’re a great guy, Sean.” “I know.” I laughed quietly and fell asleep.

“I couldn’t stand a second of silence with you anymore! The feeling is gone alright? Now get out of my life!” He stood there motionlessly as I screamed over his face, trying to fight back the tears. “I’m breaking up with you! Can you hear me?” I ran away without a thought of turning back anymore. I couldn’t stand looking at Carter’s face. I know myself too well, I might give up on the decision I’ve made. And so I continued running. It hurts me to think I’ve uttered those words that cut me through the core. It hurts me to think I’ve said those cruel words, which might haunt me every night before I go to sleep, to the one whom I love the most. Carter, I’m sorry on everything I’ve done. Go on, hate me.

…

I woke up in horror, trying to find a way to breathe. I dabbed away the tears that were about to fall again. “It wasn’t that bad. It wasn’t that bad, Summer.” I tried to calm myself down. I turned my face around. I could see Sean. He was sleeping soundly, laying his head and his arm on my bed. His face looked so relax. Like there isn’t anything to worry at all, he even smiled in his sleep. I smiled, knowing that he kept his promise, he stayed with me. I reached out and touched his hand. I listened to him, breathing evenly, as I went deep into my sleep.

No matter what happens, Sean will always be there for me. Even if the world gave up on me, at least I still have Sean. He’s another miracle. I laughed at my own thought.

With all the boredom and inspirations, I decided to start writing a story on my own too. It wouldn't be as great as Suzanne's, I have to say again her English are marvelous. It wouldn't be as funny as Hairul's, my sense of humor isn't that strong! I named it Summer's Long Lost Love. I'm pretty sure you have in mind how the story would turn out now.

So here we go!

Chapter One: Love Haunts.

I opened my eyes and gasped for air. Seconds later, tears were streaming down my cheeks.

Another nightmare. I wiped away the tears and tried to shake away the horrible feeling.

I couldn’t sleep anymore. Sighed.

After so many months, why does it just keep coming back to me?

…

“Summer, can you stop showing your damn face?” My best friend, Kate suddenly exploded with harsh words, “Get over him! Sweetie, accept the fact! Besides, you’re the one who dumped him! Look at him, how happy he’s with his life, he don’t give a damn about you anymore! And look at yourself, how lifeless are you? How long had you been stuck in this depressed soul of yours, Summer?” “I’m sorry Kate, I had a bad night yesterday.” “Don’t be sorry to me, sorry to yourself.”

I know this will be another bad day. Well, just like how it had been for the last, 285 days since I left him. I gave Kate a fake smile and shrugged off to my next class. I heard her mumbled something under her breath.

I couldn’t blame Kate. I knew I had driven her crazy. Besides, she helped me through the darkest time I’ve ever lived through. Despite all the harsh words she might throw at me from time to time, I knew Kate was just worried about me and she was praying every day that she could see the old time Summer come back again, the one who used to laugh so much and being so cheerful and optimistic more than anyone else.

I am Summer Darren. And this is a story about me, a pathetic girl trying to find her long lost love.

…

“Summer Darren, please report at the office immediately, Mrs. Yale wants to talk to you, and it’s urgent.” Wait. Did I just hear my name? “Summer! Summer! So, the old hag wants to talk to you, what you’ve done? Flirted her husband?” Sean laughed at his own joke. “Cut it off, Sean.” I stared at him. Sean sensed that I wasn’t in a good mood for jokes, stopped laughing immediately. “This isn’t one of your best days huh?” “No. Sorry Sean.” Looking at Sean’s gloomy face made me felt so guilty. I gave him an apologetic look and headed towards Mrs. Yale’s office.

Sean knew what I was going through and he had always been there for me, even though I ignored him most of the time. But to be truth, he does make things felt better for me when things had gone so wrong. As if even the world comes down, it also didn’t matters. I guess that’s one of his talents huh. I know Sean wasn’t feeling any better than me, seeing me so torn apart. I know Sean had felt so broken hearted, looking at me, through my teary eyes.

Mrs. Yale is still waiting for me. I better hurry.

“Mrs. Yale?” “Yes. Summer.” “I heard that you wanted to talk to me?” “Yes. Summer.” There was an awkward silence between us. She was humming an unknown melody and turning her pencil with her fingers. I looked around her office, wondering what’s on Mrs. Yale’s mind and why is it taking her such a long time to talk? Doesn’t she know I have class later? Mr. Finnegan’s class! How can I miss Chemistry? Oh why isn’t she talking? Should I say something now? …

“Summer.” Her voice startled me. “Yes, Mrs. Yale?” “There had been quite a lot going on your mind isn’t?” “Yeah sure. Assignments, exams.” “I’ve been hearing a lot of comments from the teachers.” “Oh.” Oh boy, this isn’t good. “To be specific, it’s more of complaints than just comments. Summer, what had you been doing lately?” “Umm, still assignments, exams.” Oh let me out of this weird situation please. “But you haven’t been doing well.” “Yes I know, Mrs. Yale. I’ve been having a lot of problems lately. But still, I’ll try to keep up as much as possible.” “Hopefully. Summer, you know a lot of teachers have high hopes on you. They know you’ll have a bright future, so don’t let them down.” “I understand Mrs. Yale, I’ll do my best in the coming on final exam.” “I’m sure you will, Summer. Alright, you can go back to your class now.” “Goodbye Mrs. Yale.” I walked out of the office, and tried hard not to knock anything down.

Among the teachers, I am the type of smart girl, or genius you can say. They always expect a lot from me, expecting me to always be the best and most outstanding ones among the other students, expecting that I would succeed in life, expecting that I would be different. But come on, beneath I’m nothing but another normal human. With all the crying at nights, waking up in the middle of the night by the terrify nightmares, you couldn’t possibly still expect me to get my head into all the assignments and exams right?

I couldn’t get him out of my mind.

He used to come over my house everyday after school. We would spend time studying together. We would sit by the porch outside as we memorize mathematic formulas together. We would lay behind the garden with the sunflowers around us as we write an English essay together. We were such a great match really. Both of us were smart and we were bright kids …

Summer, you have to stop. That was half year ago. I know, but who could have stop love from coming? Everyone thought that we were gonna last forever. Even we thought it would. But who knew it would all end up this badly? Sighed.

“Summer, is everything alright?” I’m pretty sure Corinne had notice the frown on my face. “Yeah, as always.” “Oh, don’t be sarcastic. Mrs. Yale couldn’t be that bad right?” So what now? Even my friends think that my condition is that worse, even the school wants to kick me out? Gee. “Nothing really, just some extra classes she asked if I wanted to join.” I’m good at lying, by anyways. “Oh I see, okay then. Things would be fine, Summer. Catch you later.” “Sure.”

After Corinne left, I heard the lunch break bell rang and so I started walking towards the canteen. Suddenly, there was a familiar laughter coming from somewhere near. He passed by me and his smooth skin touches mine. My heart started racing, but as I was about to turn over and say hi, he was gone. I doubt he even realized I was there. To him, I would have been categorized in the strangers group I guess. “Oh well ... hi.” That wasn’t the first time anyway. So I just continued walking towards the café with all the crowds.

“Summer, you joining us?” Sean asked me hopefully, even though I’m sure partly he already knew what my answer would be. I shook my head and mouthed, sorry. I skipped my lunch break most of the time. My friends were all nice and kind people but I bet ten to one that they wouldn’t want me there, with my sad look and all. I don’t wanna get them in more pain now. So I decided it might be better for me to disappear by myself.

I got up to my favorite hiding spot. Where I can get away from all the sadness and tears, get away from the crowds. This is the only place I can enjoy being with myself, enjoy with the silence.

“Sometimes silence can be so nice isn’t?” Ah, the familiar voice. Still so tender, still so real. I turned around even though I’m ninety nine point nine percent sure that he wouldn’t be there. Sighed, I’m having hallucination again. Well, it’s better than nothing. And so, eventually time flies as I rewind back to those blissful days.

…

“Summer, let’s ditch Mr. Kin’s class.” “Carter, the teachers are going to call the police searching all over the town for us.” He laughed. I love it a lot when he laughs. The sound just keeps on ringing in my head over and over again. “Too bad we’re the brightest kids in class isn’t?” “Yeah, that’s why Mrs. Yale always keeps an eye on us.” “You meant two eyes.” Carter truly knows how to make me laugh. “Alright you lazy bum, we have to keep moving now.” “Both of us know that we’re capable enough to skip Mr. Kin’s class.” “Yes Carter, I have no doubt that even Mr. Kin knows that. But he would love us to be there to pick out his mistakes.” “You’re right honey, better run now!” And we ran hand in hand, laughing together.

…

The bell rang and it brought me back to reality. I rather live in my dreamland, reality always seem cruel and evil to me. And, Carter’s love still haunts me.

Besides, the movie includes some of the comedy lines, I guess to relax down people.

"The Governor just said everything is going to be fine ... "

"That guy is an actor! He's reading a script!" ... "When he says we're safe, that's when we run!"

(on tv) "We're safe now ..." Then the earth quake started.

And the President of Russia's son looked so damn annoying, especially with their damn hair. haha! In the end, aah the happy ending, as they walked out and finally saw the bright sunny sky. How nice. And not to forget, Time For Miracle by Adam Lambert at the credits. Even better, of course!

I was counting the numbers of people wearing scarf. I know, silly me. Cause it was my first time, and honestly, I never saw people wearing like that before. So, I was pretty afraid that I might get weird looks on me. But, I counted, exactly 10. So it's a trend now, I guess! But the scarf did a lot of help when I was shivering and freezing in the cinema. Well, as always.

Had dinner @Manhattan Fish. Sister wouldn't stop singing the different version of Santa Claus Is Coming To Town, as named Christmas Under The Sea. And the salmon stinks! I wonder how does people even eat them raw, oh god the smell.

Got back home by 2 something. What a show it was. Today morning, woke up almost by noon, had brunch @Mines Hotel. I wore my high heels for the first time ever, I guess the last time too. You have to worry about every step. And when we're walking down the slope, like oh my god. But it does felt pretty different, cause I'm 4 inches taller! Of course, no need to mention, I'm so in pain. Thank god I brought along my sneakers, gee my lifesaver.

"Mom, you planned to come to this Book Fest, I'm sure you also getting ready to spend money right?" I'm absolutely overjoyed, cause we spent a lot of bucks, really. Even though only 7 books. I don't count that as many, compared to the others, so unbelievable, those book-lovers.

I'm so gonna finish off A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Spark tonight! Wheee.

Oh and before I leave,


Gotta introduce you all to read Hairul's own written story. The story characters, you'll find them familiar! But you'll definitely know them as soon as you get along with story. He's done with Chapter One: Bad Day Goes Good. I truly can't wait for the second chapter :D

Had a terrible, horrible nightmare yesterday night. Imagine, the combination of Transformer and Twilight! Gee, I think I watched too many movies already. Oh gosh.

Besides, yesterday night 12.15am, the poll for the Best Couple Award of the Year finally closed. It had been a tight fight, definitely! Mostly, me and Hairul, Swee Imn and Mun Wei will get a tie, or not one vote of difference.

And so, we are the King of Spade and Queen of Heart, hahaha. Kok Jun said there would be prizes given for the nominees, I'm so curious to know what would that be! Funny as Xiang Ting asked who was the two person who gave Yew Onn and her the pity two votes, lol.

Remember few days ago, the meteor shower I talked about? Hell, it did happened! I read the newspaper yesterday and it really did happened! It was cloudy, but by 4 something if I wasn't mistaken, meteor started falling from the sky. It wasn't just one, but a lot started, it was really the meteor shower. Ahhhhhhhhhhh. 33 years. I'll still be alive by then right?

Mom finally found a studio that teaches hip hop dance. I so wanted to learn, or at least take a look on how people have their lessons on dancing! Dad is ... sort of frustrated on this request. He asked me instead to join my mom in doing yoga. Very funny. I want to learn to dance, so long already. He said learning hip hop, might lead to a dark pathway. Gee. I know, but ... am I that type who would turn into like that? What stripper? God, come on. Dancing is so fun. I wouldn't lose control on that, please. Sighed.

Anyway, tonight is 2012.

And now I'm gone to find a good movie to chew me up. Adios senorita.