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2012-01-26T12:42:00.002+08:00

If you are trying your best, I guess I'm trying too hard and expecting too much perhaps. I hate that I love you, from the very beginning.

Cest La Vie.

My heart sank. Can't help myself.

2011-12-29T10:52:00.001+08:00

When he said, "I got the offer." The dejavu feeling hit me strongly. It's exactly like the time when he got the letter to transfer school. Always both good and bad news together.

Always a little lack of fate.

CHRISTIAN BAUTISTA!

2011-12-27T21:39:00.003+08:00

Omg, he is hot. And I cannot stop staring at him.

Hello world!

2011-12-20T12:45:00.000+08:00

I miss all of you. Like literally, everybody. Doesn’t matter if you visit my site or not, trust me - I have you in my mind all the time.

So, I don’t even know where to start seriously! For the past few weeks, so much so much had been going on in my life, sometimes I get dizzy realizing the fact that how fast time flew by.

I absolutely didn’t imagine life after SPM would turn out so hectic and busy. I know by saying - going on a holiday is tiring, sounds pretty arrogant (or something like that). Honestly, I thought that Ah! Finally here come the days when I can spend my whole day doing nothing but sit back and indulge in my fantasy world! Yet, I never managed to do so though it had been 2 weeks since SPM ended.

Right after the last day of SPM, I rushed to get my Starstruck! self description done. After a long afternoon, by night time I finally finished my 500 words piece of writing, I was quite flattered by myself actually (sorry for being self obsessed) considered that everything was written in such a rush of time - that would be the best and most creative essay I’ve ever wrote.

Anyhow, I wasn’t shortlisted for the second round of the competition. Oh boy. A huge disappointment did shower on me. Ah, don’t mind that! I just have to kiss my one year long journalism programme goodbye, no big deal lah.

And then, I continued with the slideshow (one of the night events during our PD trip) in complete excitement. 8th of Dec, in the drizzling rain, we took off, in a bus of course.

Yada yada yada.

I wanted to type out each and every details of the most fantastic 3D2N graduation trip. But time just doesn’t allow me to do so! Keep reading, you’ll find out why.

Thank god I still managed to upload those marvelous photos.

12^th of Dec, my family and I headed off to the Golden Triangle (in case you don’t know it’s the area around Bukit Bintang, I know, what a fancy name). One day gone.

13th of Dec, Vivian Chong Clement Phang and I successfully celebrated Taylor Swift’s 22nd birthday, at Mid Valley, in our very own way of course. Another day gone.

Even the video that was meant to be Taylor Swift’s birthday gift wasn’t even done yet, pfffft.

14th of Dec, my family and I went for a down south trip, from Melaka to Johor to Singapore. 3 days gone.

17th of Dec, my family and I went to TAR College’s Open Day at Setapak. A very, very far place, traffic jams all the way!

18th of Dec, that is today. My family and I went to Mid Valley’s education fair. It’s a sad thing because I didn’t bump into anybody familiar. The rest of my classmates went yesterday, boohoo. But I did have a glimpse of Wye Qwen at UCSI’s booth!

And of course, how can I miss out shopping? Especially when all those large posters with SALES and DISCOUNTS were greeting at me every time I passed by a shop. Plus I wouldn’t have time to shop for New Year’s clothes when I’m stuck in a deserted place serving the nation (in case you don’t understand this, it simply means - national service)

I’m currently reading Sophie Kinsella’s Shopaholic Series, so you can imagined me going around the shopping mall, pointing at all the famous brands, saying ooh! Rebecca loved Miu Miu, and Prada, and Dior and …

My sister was sick listening to me babbling on everything about Rebecca. Even for the course I’m going to study - Public Relation can make me relate to Luke Brandon (Rebecca’s husband, super cute and handsome guy)

Anyway. Back to the topic of shopping. I got myself new shoe new bag new clothes new hair accessories. The feeling of having so many shopping bags sling over your shoulder and your hands, is just beyond words. Awesome!

By the way, I found Lady Gaga’s official merchandise, her tee! But it costs 80 bucks, so instead of that, I bought a ‘born this way’ hand bag to comfort my bitter heart. It was from Miss Whatever; and hey don’t mind me, because an auntie who’s older than me was nearly going to grab it before me, so the bag isn’t what you call - childish.

I guess that’s almost about it on whatever that’s been going on in my hectic life. Yeah right, maybe hectic isn’t quite the word.

Au revoir, mi amor!

…

And I’m completely overwhelmed by my future plans of study honestly. I’m sick and tired of listening to all those lectures on, diploma advanced diploma bachelor of degree journalism public relation corporate communication scholarships bursary accommodation materialistic transport fees TAR College UTAR Taylor’s University College … I really wished to be just the simple high school girl once again.

if we ever meet again

2011-12-12T09:47:00.001+08:00

Typing at the empty little box at my Profile Page, I realized even so much spaces are not enough to say what's on my mind. Because the thing is, 5 years, had been a really long time. Filled with great and unforgettable memories. So it's absolutely just beyond words, I can say.

Come to think of it, my best friends are all from different schools. And I was once utterly in love with and be loved by someone so special.

I came back from Port Dickson Graduation Trip, and the beautiful memories just kept flooding my mind and tears eventually got overflow. I'm not ready to leave high school yet. I still want to get up to bed and wear my brown skirt and brown tie. I want to listen to those constant squeals made by the guys who are just crazy for Chinese Chess. I want to laugh about how the class always complains about one of the most disastrous teachers we've ever had, and Zhao Xuan's ever-so brilliant imitation of the teachers.

I still miss the way how Puan Tan laughed lightheartedly at the boys' silly act. Also, there's Puan Foo's class that's always filled with sketches, plays and brain storming. We rarely had any English homework before. How can I forget every time Miss Chin started off with her stories, she got trailed off easily to something else and in the end we never got to study for 2 whole period!

Stop. I can on and on about this for ages. But I will not, it will always be safely kept in my memory. The curtains had finally closed, and it's really the last goodbye.

Till the day we meet again, I will miss everything about the lot of you and you and you. God, I can't stand this.

Signing off, a damsel reminiscing those good old times.

IT'S FINALLY THE END.

2011-12-07T15:09:00.001+08:00

SPM is gone for good peeps.

And so blue sky, sandy beach, and sunshine (pray for that) here we come! *SCREAMS*

A day for miracles.

2011-12-02T22:06:00.001+08:00

Birthdays had always been special to me. Every time when I wake up on my birthday or my girl/boy/close/good friends' birthday, I always have this kind of miraculous feeling stirring inside me. It's a day for miracles, you know?

Because well of course, the main fact is, years ago on this day, a new child was brought to this world. And yes that is a miracle.

And then, the indescribable, awesome and beyond-words feeling when you successfully surprise somebody else and made them happy for the whole day. You'll forget about those countless day and night you've spent preparing for it the second a smile struck on their face. That is another miracle too.

And then, today.

So the biggest miracle I've had is, I found out that I'm heading to the exactly same camp with Hairul. I meant seriously, don't you think that is so, incredible? Out of the so many so many so many camps, yet we got placed at the exactly same camp. Fate and destiny does belong to us. (I AM VERY THRILLED)

And then, yesterday.

The birthday surprise - never in a million years I had ever ever ever ever saw that coming.

And then, today again.

I went out with my families and my favourite cousin who came back from Australia for a fantastic karaoke session. 17 years old, it was my first time singing in a beautiful and huge room, with comfortable sofas and a private toilet!

And my presents?

I finally got Lady Gaga's Born This Way album, even amazingly, I got TWO! That is just so funny, mommy and my best friends got the same gift. Wow. And I got an Ipod Shuffle. The smallest and tiniest gift, I thought it was box with a ring. I had never imagined myself holding an Apple product before. And I got my favourite book, Mini Shopaholic - thanks to my book-lover aka my sister.

Thank you, I am very very much loved.

God loves us. Gaga loves me (HER MARRY THE NIGHT VIDEO IS OUT). And my friends love me.

P/s: sorry if that sounds very much self-obsessed, don't mind the birthday girl please.

:)

This feeling is extraordinary.

2011-12-02T09:50:00.001+08:00

Istill cannot get over the fact about yesterday’s surprise dinner. Stillenthralled, still amazed, still touched me so much, still surprised. Well, it’scalled a surprise dinner after all isn’t?

Okwhere to begin now?

Right,so there I was feeling bitter for many weeks thinking that people had actuallyforgotten about my birthday, and then I received a phone call from Xiang Tingon 30^th of November.

Sheasked me out for a dinner, just the two of us. And boy, you have completely noidea how thrilled and excited I was, considering it was JUST a dinner. But Iwouldn’t have expected more either, when I didn’t even had expected anythingfrom the beginning.

So.I had a little difficult time browsing through my wardrobe looking forsomething nice but not TOO nice to wear. Or else people might call me la-di-da forbeing overdressed! In the end, I picked out my favourite yellow sleeveless topmatched with a skinny jean, and black heels that my mom just bought on thatday. Perfecto, and off I went.

Trustme. I was shaking from inside out all the way to Pit Stop Kitchen, Kuchai Lama.

AsI stepped in the romantic restaurant, I spotted Xiang Ting with a flowery whitesleeveless top waving frantically to me. I sat down, and she handed me A Love Letter to My Girlfriend (awwwwwww)it’s not a book, mind you.

Ilet out a huge breath and calmed myself down. Then. My world became pitchedblack.

Somebodycovered my eyes up. I felt the a-little-chubby fingers, and … it was YenTheng! I just couldn’t stop saying, ohmy god oh my god oh my god. Without even being able to compose myself yet,Vivian Chong popped out of no where wearing with this beautiful and flawlessrosy pink dress.

Ishrieked, literally.

Andthe most unbelievable thing is, Clement Phang suddenly came into my sight andsaid, “Hi, I just passed by here!”

Thatfeeling was just incredible! Absolutely beyond words I can explain. Eyes werebrimmed with tears as I see 4 of my favourite best friends surrounded me. Gee.

Thefunny thing is, I was just texting all of them few hours ago and nobody showedany sign that they were gonna be appeared in the restaurant!

Ijust messaged Clement about the NS placement and stuff. And he told me he wasgoing to take a nap. That was about halfan hour before the dinner.

AndVivian Chong asked me what plans I have for my birthday today. That was just in the morning on the surprise dinnerday.

Woah.

HOW CAN I NOT BE AMAZED?

Finallycomposed myself and relaxed down. We talked, and talked and talked almost abouteverything, from SPM exam to Justin Bieber to Clement’s church mate to menstruation(I know this may sound weird) how our school used to look like to the boys inour class to Prom Night to our future career. It was just SO awesome andhilarious.

Afew of the jokes that I remembered:

Clement:For the drink, I would like to have less ice.

Waiter:Ok, how many cubes?

(thewaiter is VERY super-duper-uber adorable)

Me:XX’s stomach cramp is so serious. I meant she even said she got dizzy when ithappens.

XiangTing: Yeah! I experienced that before.

Clement:Me too, when I was 6 years old.

Me:What the hell? Clement, we’re talking about menstruation here. You’ve reachedpuberty at the age of 6?!

Andmany, many more.

Beforewe started filling up our stomach, Clement asked everyone to wish something forthe birthday girl. A traditional in his family, usually when they celebratetheir grandmother's birthday.

XiangTing: I hope that you'll find your prince charming!

VivianChong: Stay like this forever, be happy!

Clement:Stay healthy, that's the most important one isn't it?

YenTheng: Hope that you'll have a successful future, excellent results, have abeautiful family ... (lots to say haha)

Atone point when we’re bloated after finishing our dinner, Clement beckoned thewaiter and whispered something to him. And there came, the cake! Or cakes to bespecific.

Hebought 5 slices of cakes with all different flavours because he didn’t knowwhich one I like. That is just so attentive and sweet.

By9.30pm, we hugged and they left one by one, with Xiang Ting accompanying mebecause my parents had not arrived yet.

Andyou know how this all came about? She then, revealed the whole story.

Theiractual plan was to come to my house and surprise me while I was going for mytuition today. And they worked along with my parents - secretly about thesurprise. I can’t believe that my parents knew about it, and I didn’t realize athing!

Mymom suggested them to surprise me during today’s karaoke celebration with myrelatives. But they didn’t want to interrupt our family occasion so oh well.

AndI realized, when Xiang Ting told me to ask my parents whether I’m allowed to gofor the dinner. They already knew about it, before hand! That made the wholegetting-permission-to-go-out thing just so silly.

Ah.I’m still couldn’t get over it.

Itmight sound simple for you, but for me - it was the best birthday celebration Iever had in my entire 17 years of life. And that’s what all that matters right?Missionaccomplished magnificently, my friends.

Yougot me! :)

Lots and lotsand lots and lots of love and thanks to you guys, Regina.

it will end, soon enough.

2011-11-21T11:48:00.001+08:00

So, first week, honeymoon week over. Now, it's time for the real tough stuff.

p/s: Dreamt of people committing suicide for having too much stress from SPM exam, they ran off from the building, literally! Holy. Like come on, seriously.

p/p/s: Katy Perry's The One That Got Away music video is just, so beautiful.

p/p/p/s: Lady Gaga's Marry The Night: Prelude Pathetique just came out. Her voice is so mesmerizing and I can't wait for the entire music video, it would be fascinating, for sure!

Signing off, a damsel in distress :)

drum rolls

2011-11-13T09:38:00.001+08:00

The day that we had longed for 11 years had finally arrive.

No more counting down needed on my whiteboard. Because the number had turn to zero already.

I say it as if I'm all set for this utmost important exam of my life, no clearly I'm not. Even if you give me another one year extra for preparation, I still don't think it would even be enough. But we've worked long and hard for this moment, though for me - I know there's so much I still don't understand, and I know teachers would have lost faith in me perhaps, but ah.

For now, I just wished for everything to end in a swift. I would do my best. Break a leg and good luck peeps!

2011-11-13T09:34:00.001+08:00

Two years ago.

2011-11-12T20:39:00.001+08:00

Two years ago. 

111111

2011-11-11T11:11:00.000+08:00

It feels silly for me to be clasping my fingers together right now and pray. But today seemed to be a special day. So I close my eyes for this one minute and pray.

I hope for peace in every corner of the world.
I hope for happiness to fill the heart of each and everyone that I love.
I hope for success and luck to me and my friends in the coming ultimate exam.
I hope for a miracle that by someday I can meet someone like you.
I hope that my life would blossom into a beautiful one in the near future, maybe not a bed of roses, but may it be worth to reminisce with every second passing by.
I hope for poverty, diseases, anger, torment and sadness to vanish away.
I hope for the world not to end by 2012 but instead become a better place to live in.

I still have so much to wish for but this special one minutes is almost over. So I hope you have wished for what you yearned the most.

Today, marks the end of the best part of my life.

2011-11-10T19:14:00.002+08:00

So, I've graduated. Like, wow really?

It had definitely been quite of a tough ride to get to this point of my life. One second, I was that little shy and timid girl who sat alone by the corner of the class on the first day of school. Next thing I know, I'm seventeen and I'm bracing myself for another turning point of my life, getting ready to head out and explore a bigger part of the real world.

As we always say, time flies in a blink of an eye. But there were a lot that had happened within that one blink, or that five years. So much of fond memories to be recalled.

You came in, horrified, not knowing what to expect on the first day of school. Thankfully, you made new friends. And they became your best sisters to count on through thick and thin. Out of the blue, you fell in love. When you thought your whole world was his and he belonged to you just the same, you fell out of love once again. And the saddest thing was when you got into a fight with your best friends, you started to stop believing in the existence of best friends forever. Not too later then, you found yourselves laughing with them without an exact reason.

Then in came your knight in shining armor, and everything was in perfect place until you broke his heart and you don't know how to heal his wound. Pop! came a bunch of haters (who only made you more famous) Then you found yourselves strangled by tons of works and duties and there's just so much you just don't understand. And you saw hope, you succeeded once and that happiness and joyous feeling was just indescribable.

Soon, you fell back into the same pattern, same routine. And when he said he's leaving to another place, you felt like your whole world was gonna fall apart. Unbelievably, you danced in front of hundreds of people, and it was a tremendous amazing feeling! You had class parties, performances and sketches, the unity and the bond between all classmates were slowly budding and slowly growing stronger by each day.

You thought that your high school life sounded like a mess and it flew past you in a blur, yet you enjoyed reminiscing each and every second of those memories. Cest' la vie.

I feel so blessed, that you and you and you and the rest of you had completed the best time of my life.

less than 3, :)

As I took a last stroll around the school, taking in each and every view, rewinding back those beautiful memories in every corner of the school, I wished so badly that you were here.

Take me down like I'm a domino!

2011-11-07T08:59:00.000+08:00

 
DOMINO,

By Jessie J.

I'm feeling sexy and free
Like glitter's raining on me
You like a shot of pure gold
I think I'm 'bout to explode

I can taste the tension like a cloud of smoke in the air
Now I'm breathing like I'm running cause you're taking me there
Don't you know...you spin me out of control
Ooh ooh ooh ooh

We can do this all night
Turn this club, skin tight
Baby come on

Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Pull me like a bass drum
Sparkin' up a rhythm
Baby, come on!
Ooh ooh ooh ooh

Rock my world into the sunlight
Make this dream the best I've ever known
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Every second is a highlight
When we touch don't ever let me go
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

You got me loosing my mind
My heart beats out of time
I'm seeing Hollywood stars
You stroke me like a guitar

I can taste the tension like a cloud of smoke in the air
Now I'm breathing like I'm running cause you're taking me there
Don't you know...you spin me out of control
Ooh ooh ooh

We can do this all night
Turn this club, skin tight
Baby come on
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Pull me like a bass drum
Sparkin' up a rhythm
Baby, come on!
Ooh ooh ooh ooh

Rock my world into the sunlight
Make this dream the best I've ever known
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Every second is a highlight
When we touch don't ever let me go
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Ooh baby baby got me feeling so right
Ooh baby baby dancing in the moonlight
Ooh baby baby got me feeling so right
Ooh baby baby dancing in the moonlight
Ooh baby baby got me feeling so right
Ooh baby baby dancing in the moonlight

Rock my world into the sunlight
Make this dream the best I've ever known
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Every second is a highlight
When we touch don't ever let me go
Dirty dancing in the moonlight
Take me down like I'm a domino

Camaraderie

2011-11-02T17:02:00.003+08:00

No matter how serious life gets, you still gotta have that one person you can be completely stupid with.

You see I don't really think it's about the place, or the time, or the weather or whatsoever either, but it's about cherishing those (might be) last and unforgettable memories with your fellow dearest friends.

I do feel apologetic. And I really wish everyone can be there. But it's just so tough, man to ensure everyone get what they want.

I'm not good at being the bad guy. Once again, I'm sorry. I just want it to be something worth to look back and recall at after, maybe 10 or 20 years when we meet again.

it's been a long time coming.

2011-10-31T16:01:00.000+08:00

Great. Now, I'm sad and I'm mad.

You made me felt like my big ambition, is just a tiny little dream after all.

And you made me felt unappreciated, maybe not even worth to call best friends either.

Ah. Shouldn't make a mountain out of a molehill. Shouldn't cry over spilled milk. Man, thinking too much, seriously. Gotta get my head in the game!

Au revoir.

Auspicious day!

2011-10-24T17:57:00.002+08:00

A visit to the construction site. (heehee)

Thank you my dear friends,

You guys will remain as one of the best parts of my high school memories.

Lotsa love, Regina :)

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

2011-10-11T13:47:00.002+08:00

Adele's voice is so powerful, so mesmerizing, and I can completely feel the sadness and heartbroken feeling deep inside her. Like really.

Thanks to the asshole who hurt her so deep, we have such a beautiful song.

And, I don' t think we can ever find someone like you, someone so amazing like you, Adele.

Someone Like You, Adele.

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, would be my favourite line in the lyrics. Damn, isn't it so true? Seriously. So heartrending.

In my list, I shall state this as the saddest song I've ever heard, for now. Number two will go to, Demi Lovato's Skyscraper. And number three will go to, Rascal Flatts' What Hurts the Most.

Ah.

While writing my essay "Who I was Meant To Be With" and listening to those saddening songs, I get to fully indulge myself in the emotional words I was writing by my own. In that way, the story was more convincing and more real, you know?

I just hope that teacher would not say it's too lengthy, because well, I think I've got easily drawn away by the story line and those words were flowing so smoothy. I rarely get so much of inspirations you see, so I kept on writing non-stopped. Until, nearly 10 pages I think. I just hope it's not too lengthy, and teacher will read till the end.

And this holiday, I'm proud to say I managed to keep up with my time table, about 90% or so. Incredible, haha. I was haunted by the memory of being left behind by the schedule for so many days, I eventually gave up following it. That was last holiday, but well I did it this time! Yipee.

Ok. I guess that's all for now.

Signing off, a damsel in distress (lol)

p/s: my best man, I'm so glad how things had changed so drastically between us, in a better way :)

4S, for Steve.

2011-10-08T13:36:00.002+08:00

To Steve Jobs,

I may not own a Macbook,

An Ipod, an Iphone, an Ipad,

Or any of the Apple Products,

Neither am I one of your Apple fans,

But I do know that,

on the 7th of October,

the world not only mourn for the loss of an amazing human being,

but also a man who had made our world a better place to live in.

R.I.P, Steve Jobs.

We shall meet again.

2011-09-27T20:52:00.002+08:00

When we've finished UPSR, we sneered at the primary school students saying - it's just a piece of cake. When we've finished PMR, we laughed at the Form Three students saying - trust me, it's really easy. Now, I'm waiting anxiously for the day to come when I can say I've done my SPM and I've done it well. Au revoir, people. And of course, best of luck. We shall meet again on 7th of December 2011, that's when it's all gonna end!

Enchanting

2011-09-25T08:40:00.000+08:00

So many unanswered questions about you,
but we go with the flow,
we follow the cycle
strangers to friends to lovers to enemies
and everything starts all over again.

My best man, your bridesmaid,
just like that and we are back to square one,
way back all these complications,
way past all these uncertainties.

Our twisted and tangled love story
used to be simple just like you and me
and we thought it's only about two person loving endlessly.
Well of course life is not a fairytale
so we shall stop living in our dreams and face the reality.

Till I meet you and lay my eyes on your again,
I will only be sure by then
whether you still pull my heartstrings,
make me short of breath
and make my heart thud so loudly,
race so wildly.

- gg.

You reap what you sow.

2011-09-23T18:00:00.002+08:00

So, trials over.

But nightmare is just about to began, as SPM is just around the corner. Less than two months, people.

And with sister deeply engrossed in studying for her UPSR, we were both mugging books all day long. But of course, her nightmare only lasted for 3 days and voila!

Throughout the many years of studying so hard, and so long, I'm really appreciative of all my parents' sacrifices and efforts to nurture me into a well-rounded person. Like how dad's always willing to help me out with whatever subjects. He gives way of his work just to ensure I fully understand everything. And boy, I really am amazed that he can remember all those long taught lessons like, more than 20 years ago!

And mummy always ensuring there would be food stock in the cupboard for me to chew and ease my sleepiness while I revise. She would prepare vitamins, glucose, chicken essence, tea, so that I have enough energy. And she would never forget to wish me good luck before I get down of the car and head towards the exam battlefield.

And how can I ever forget my little sister (who's not so little already, actually), who was willing to listen to me babbling on about how stressful am I and even, studied Tatabahasa together with me.

And there's also my girlfriends, who are willing to help me out in all of the questions that I blew off my mind trying to figure out but failed. And how we always laugh together when we had gone completely bonkers for doing too much Add Math.

Ah, in between those numbers and formulas and alphabets. I've also learnt how important families and friends are.

:)

There's so much more I wanted to say. So much had happened in this few months. But, time is always and always, not enough.

Au revoir!

here we go again.

2011-08-05T20:09:00.004+08:00

I don't know how I did it 2 years ago. I don't know how I managed to squeeze myself into (thankful of my tiny size) top 10 during PMR Trials. I don't know how 8As appeared in my result slip on Christmas Eve, PMR Result Day. I don't know how I did it but I was one of the bright and smart students before.

But, now - 100 days from SPM. I don't know how I'm going to do it, (here I go again) but I am leaving behind facebook, blogger. And I am going to strive towards success now.

So bye, and good luck peeps.

:)

gave in too much hope

2011-08-04T15:19:00.003+08:00

Whenever I feel emotions of great complexity gushing upon me, I would always choose to close my eyes and drift off to my dreamland. Sometimes I want to escape from the real world so badly, to dive into the a place without any worries at all, to give myself a chance to let out - doesn't matter if it's just a single breath. I know I sound exactly like I'm a coward for not being brave enough to confront whatever I'm going through. But well, I'm just tired of dealing with all these fucking pent-up feelings, tired of trying to sort them out, tired of finding a way out. Frustrations, anger, happiness, anxiousness, excitement, disappointment, when it all comes together, I can't take it.

You might not be able to comprehend why am I here complaining and complaining all the time. Neither can I exactly, probably ran out of optimism?